Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Week 1

So a quick update. I have taken a small step forward which is good, but i know i can do better. I have started making a green smoothie everyday made mostly of mixed greens and frozen fruit. I'm trying to get myself to take E-3 live everyday. That will be my next big accomplishment.
Ive been trying to eat mostly salads but it's not easy when your working 12 hour shifts 4 days a week. So to solve this problem, I am making a pact to myself to make a salad the night before along with a big thing of green smoothie.
I have decided that i really dislike typing so i will hopefully be getting a laptop soon with a web cam so you can follow along that way.
Well I am off to practice my salad making skills but hopefully I will have more to write later!!
Much peace and blessings to you all!!!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Doctors take a stand against home births

Came across this article from USA TODAY. Thought it was interesting. I in no way agree with it. It's scary reading these articles and wondering if severe stands will be made and the push to out law home birth will actually happen and the job of Midwifery will be a job of an outlaw, delivering babies in secret away from the watchful eyes of the government and law makers. As scary as this all seemed to me at first, I then saw that amazingly there was a long list of mothers who replied to the article with nothing but great experiences of home births and the want to support midwifes who need it right now. The greatest tool the medical field uses today seems to be fear. Theirs nothing more powerful than totally freaking the holly you know what out of someone to make them do what you want. It's the power of intimidation.
Anywho off my soap box. Read the article and you can decide for yourself. Keep fighting for your freedom of choice!!


At its annual meeting a couple of years ago, the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists distributed bumper stickers that featured a drawing of a stork dangling a sack of baby from its beak with the slogan: "Home Deliveries are for Pizza."
Last week, the American Medical Association's House of Delegates passed a resolution introduced by the ob/gyn group that says "the safest setting for labor, delivery, and the immediate post-partum period" is a hospital, a birthing center in a hospital complex or a properly accredited freestanding birthing center.
"The AMA supports a woman's right to make an informed decision regarding her delivery and to choose her health care provider, and stresses that the safest setting for delivering a baby is in the hospital or a birthing center within a hospital complex," AMA board member Steven Stack said in a statement. "Serious complications can arise with little or no warning even among women with low-risk pregnancies. The health and safety of the mother and baby are our top priority."
Home births represent a pretty small minority of total U.S. births. According to a 2005 study in the journal BMJ, about only 5,400 women in the U.S. and Canada planned to deliver at home in 2000 with the help of a certified professional midwife, or CPM. (I doubt anyone has reliable information about the number of women who deliver at home with a so-called "lay midwife" who has not received any formal training or gone through a certification process). I suspect the number of home births has gone up since 2000, at least slightly, because increasing numbers of hospitals and doctors are prohibiting women who've had a C-section to attempt a VBAC, or vaginal birth after C-section, spurring some women to attempt them at home.
The BMJ study found that among pregnant women whose risk for complications was low, those who delivered at home had lower rates of medical interventions, such as epidurals or forceps, than those who delivered at the hospital, and the two groups had similar death rates.
According to the American College of Nurse-Midwives, certified nurse-midwives attended (midwives prefer that word to "delivered") more than 300,000 U.S. births in 2002, only a tiny fraction of which were at home. This article on the website of the American College of Nurse Midwives outlines some of the other major differences between nurse-midwives, and CPMs (a third designation, certified midwife, or CM, applies to someone who receives training similar to a nurse-midwife's but has another health-care designation, such as physician's assistant or physical therapist, instead of nurse). The National Birth Policy Coalition, an advocacy group, has launched the "Big Push for Midwives Campaign" urging more states to license and regulate CPMs.
Not surprisingly, the new AMA policy has generated a lot of discussion in the blogosphere, in part by people concerned that the doctors' group is out to get states to ban home deliveries (of course, the AMA itself can only lobby for such a ban, not implement it). Check out this post by Rachel Walden, a Nashville medical librarian who writes the Women's Health News blog, and this one from "Health Law Prof" blogger S. Elizabeth Malloy of the University of Cincinnati College of Law.

The "new" beginning

Well it’s been about 2 months since I came back from the tree of life and this is the somewhat drear update. I came back 25 healthy pounds lighter, clearer skin, happier, energized, spiritually awake and feeling great. It took me a measly 2 weeks to get back into unhealthy patterns. Now 2 months later, I’ve gained back 15 of the 25 pounds, my acne is worse than it was before and I’m falling back asleep. Yay me!! Ugggggg.
The positive news is that I saved myself for 10 days and went out to California for a class that Elena Tonetti-Vladimirova gave . She’s the maker of the film Birth as we know it. It’s an amazing film I recommend for anyone and everyone. It will truly alter your thoughts and expectations of birth and will change your life. I could go on and on about it but I will write more about the film later. The course Elena gave was an amazing experience and once again my true self bloomed. I felt inspired and on fire, wanting to do a hundred things at once. Sadly I came back to St. George only to fall asleep again (I really need to rid myself of this spiritual narcolepsy I seem to love).
Enough with the sadness depression and excuses!! I refuse to be a sleeping beauty any more. I want to enravish the beauty inside me and hide it no longer! It’s time to discard the scared weakness with no back bone and become empowered!! So here it goes. I’m going to list my aspirations and update at least once a week my progress. The New Year’s resolution thing starts now, even though it’s technically march.
1. I will start my path to become a mid wife this year. No more excuses of I have no money, I’m not good enough, and I don’t have any experience with birth on a personal level. I’m done with all that. The best time to start is now. While I’m young and have a clean slate. Nothing to hold me back.
2. I will be 90% raw and mostly vegan and organic. What was the point of 3 months training to become a raw chef and instructor if I don’t ever use it? Again no more excuses of I’m not good enough. It’s complete crap I feed myself.
3. I’m going to start running again and making yoga and meditation a part of my life. What’s the point of eating healthy if you’re not feeding your spirit and utilizing your energy? There’s nothing like a good work out to distress and feel good.
4. I want to become one with nature. Start camping, hiking, sleeping out under the stars and just start loving mother earth again. You’re nothing without a mother right? She gives you your body after all. Why not have a good relationship with her too.
5. Start healing my emotional crap and start throwing the baggage away. We all hold onto an amazing amount of emotional hurt and grief. It’s amazing that we all survive and function to the point that we do. It has done wonders for me so far and I just started. Why stop now?

So the next part is how do I complete all this? Where do I start?
1. Look into becoming an apprentice for a current midwife, do my home work, look into schools, prices, deadlines and look into where I want to go with it.
2. Buy a dehydrator. What is a raw foodist without their blender and dehydrator?, Stop eating out, find another out for my stress rather than taking it out on food, start practicing what I learned, share with others.
3. Well start running. Get off my lazy but, put on some running shoes and run!!
4. I love camping, sleeping, I walk every day so this shouldn’t be too hard, right?........
5. Start getting connected to other healers and throw myself whole heartedly into it.
I’m giving myself to the universe. I’m completely giving myself to her caring gentle hands. She’s our mother and wants only the best for her children. You can never go wrong in her arms. Just trust and let go. Lastly pray. Just keep praying and allowing love from father and mother, allowing myself to feel love from them.
Please just don’t give up on me. I’m not ready to give up. I won’t give up!!

Pictures from Cali

Elena and I
The whole family



Cool car at the farmers market in Chico Cali